Sista Mi

“Sista mi” (almost twenty)

I’m barely 20 and I’m dealing with emotions i don’t understand.
I’m barely 20 and I’m doing things both my parents can’t stand.
I’m barely 20 and can’t help it
When my mind takes a brief walk beneath the tires of a truck.
Cos at almost 20, I’m so so so confused.
I’m almost 20 and don’t know how to hate who -. am although
think should.
I’m almost 20 and just got evicted…lol..sounds cute right?
Spot 20 year old me, in a bus, heading to Oshodi, back to my
mother and i haven’t called her. Lord knows where i lost my home
training!
It’s a beautiful sight actually
Quarter to 20 year old me leaking tears at the back of a large
danfo Thinking of all she’d say to me
Trying to write how I’ve felt for the past few days because of it.
I’m almost 20 and my mother does not understand me
As expected.
I’m almost 20 and the pressure is still getting werser.
I’m almost 20 and think /’ve failed one time too many.
I’m almost 20 and l can’t lie, it’s a battle between my sanity and
morality.
I’m almost 20 and think i need therapy.
I’m almost 20 and do not know how to cry on a shoulder Even
when i want to, more than ever.
I’m barely 20 and my fake smiles shine realer than the real ones.
I’m barely 20 and I’ve got tons of awards for my role in the life
series “Pretending to be okay”.
Oh well,
Barely 20 year old me is worn and wanting sleep in the back of
this state of the art danfo that I’m in.
Barely 20 me has also decided to put this piece out on medium
And any other piece like it
For people experiencing my ‘almost 20’s’ to find and relate.
It’s 34 days to 20.
I’m ending this piece, sleepily
Still in the danfo
on the same day i started it Letting my eyes close
Hoping i don’t go past my bus stop.”
(Excerpt from a writeup by my sister)

MATERIAL: Oil paint

SIZE: 18″ by 24″

YEAR OF PRODUCTION: 2022